This is how I feel. From the heart. Deep within me. 
I miss the absolute fuck out of you.
I miss texting you.
I miss talking to you every night, and falling asleep to your sweet yet deep voice telling me that you want me to be laying there next to you.
I miss the way you made me feel safe. Ever so safe. Just by being there. Being here. For me. 
I miss the way you would tell me that you would never hurt me.
I miss the fact that I felt I could trust you more than anyone in the world.
I miss the hope that you gave me and the person that you made me.

I’ll never truly know why you chose her.
I’ll never really know why I wasn’t good enough.
I won’t ever really know why I allowed myself to get this attached to you in the first place.
But, I know that one day, when that song comes on the radio, or that favorite food of yours is mention in a random conversation, I will think of you without the deep pain. Without the pain radiating through my body from my heart that seems so hurt, yet not completely broken due to the fact that I still like you more than I can possibly show in words. One day, I will miss you without hurting. Without crying. Without wondering why you did what you did. Without….wanting you so badly that I can’t think. One day….Just not TOday.

Im strong. You always told me that, and I will always believe it.